tag:azanrilove.com,2005:/blogs/blogBlog2023-08-13T22:39:17-04:00Azanri Lovefalsetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/72566062023-08-13T22:39:17-04:002023-10-16T10:57:30-04:00All we have to do is show up<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/s:bzglfiles/u/452651/ce013219d963aa14a68a039b4edc52fe1ea781a6/original/32fa45c4-51f5-401f-b537-79cdbc1059b9.jpeg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==" class="size_l justify_center border_" />Peace. ☀️ I took this photo one day when I was walking down the beach, and the sunset was absolutely beautiful. I was in awe of God’s creation and the art in the sky. I was grateful for the moment. I was blessed by God’s gift. This photo is of a man praying in the water who also shared gratitude in the moment. This moment really showed me how much God is all around us all the time waiting for moments to love us. Waiting for moments to bless us with big things and even small things. In this moment, I realized God gave us the gift of life for free. Everything we need and every answer we seek is available to us. The path for our lives is already unfolding in divine timing. All we have to do is show up. 🧡</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/72460842023-07-23T14:45:36-04:002023-07-23T14:45:36-04:00One step at a time<p>Many of us have goals and things we want to accomplish in this life. However, most of the time we are overwhelmed with our day to day responsibilities including work, life, relationships, etc. Lately, I have been learning the importance of celebrating small victories and small steps. When we try to always focus on the bigger picture, sometimes it will seem like we are never doing enough or reaching our ultimate goal. Break it into small steps. Take one step at a time. Every step forward counts towards the bigger goal. When you take small steps eventually you will get where you want to go. It doesn't matter where you came from or where you are going. All that matters is right now. This step. This moment. This moment is all we really have because none of us know the future. I heard a saying once by Lao Tzu that said, “If you are depressed you are living in the past, if you are anxious you are living in the future, if you are at peace you are living in the present.” Your happiness is right now. Focus on the present. Just take a single step.</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/72088232023-05-14T14:50:28-04:002023-05-14T14:51:30-04:00Life is a gift <p>I got some advice from my 92 year old grandma when I went to visit her recently. She said, “LIVE while you are living, and always have fun.” We make life complicated, but it is actually very simple. Life is a gift. 💕 Love it. Enjoy it. Learn from it. Grow from it. Cherish it. Explore it. Live it. Be grateful for it. Don’t waste it. ✌🏽 </p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/71067052022-11-20T12:13:32-05:002022-11-20T12:20:54-05:00Keep going <p>Sometimes life doesn't go the way we want. That’s why it's really important to stay in touch with who you are and what you want. Continue to pursue those things so that no matter what direction life goes, you can still find happiness. The more you get to know yourself the easier it gets, but you can't start only when you feel low. It's a lifestyle that is continuous. It's not always easy, but it's worth it. I've had a lot of moments in my life that didn't go the way I planned, but I always bounce back by finding happiness in myself then pursuing happiness in new ways or new places. Try journaling, praying, and meditating everyday to start getting in tune with yourself and figuring out what you really want. Then start going after it. There is no reason to be afraid to pursue the life you want. If you are afraid, then just do it afraid. Facing your fears is one of the most powerful things you can do for yourself to become free.</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/70798742022-10-12T12:10:06-04:002022-10-12T12:10:06-04:00Life is not perfect. Be happy anyway.<p>I’ve been on such a crazy life journey recently. The main thing I’ve learned is life is not perfect, but that should never stop us from living it. Be happy anyway. Trust anyway. Love anyway. Forgive anyway. Heal anyway. Live your dreams anyway. Believe in yourself anyway. Be yourself anyway. Love yourself anyway. Be free anyway. Every day is a new opportunity to be who you want to be. No matter how hard life gets sometimes, always remember that no darkness can ever destroy your light because every time you will only shine brighter. Every time you will only get stronger and more powerful. So keep fighting warrior…good things are on the way. ✨❤️</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/70526212022-09-03T16:03:54-04:002022-09-03T16:03:55-04:00Just Be<p>Learning to “just be” is so important. We don’t need to accomplish a million things to be special or worthy of happiness. Life is already beautiful and so are we. It’s hard to stop overthinking sometimes, but I’ve been learning to just let things go and let life unfold naturally the way it’s meant to. We can’t control situations or the people around us, and we are not meant to. It’s okay to not have everything figured out. Keep taking it one day at a time and what is meant for you will come. In the meantime take the pressure off and enjoy the journey. Keep showing love to yourself because you are doing better than you think. Also know that you are not alone, and you are loved. 💕</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/70226902022-07-24T17:50:24-04:002022-07-27T07:49:22-04:00You are a work of art <p>You don’t have to achieve anything to be special. You already are. Plenty of things are beautiful and needed by just existing: plants, animals, food…YOU. You are a work of art. God made art when He created you. You change the world by simply existing. Love yourself. Be yourself. ✨💕</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/70033762022-06-28T11:10:01-04:002022-06-28T11:10:01-04:00God's plan is better<p>I am starting to see how EVERYTHING is connected, and nothing is by accident or random. God has a bigger plan, and He always has. All He asks is for us to trust and let it unfold. Letting go of my plans is the best thing I've ever done. It changed my life. God's plan is better. 💕</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68924332022-02-08T20:21:01-05:002022-02-08T20:33:25-05:00Self-love is necessary<p>I read this in a book today, and it really spoke to me:</p>
<p>“Self-love is a necessary part of finding the right person to love you. It’s not possible to accept the unconditional love of another person until you first love yourself. Finding true love doesn’t happen in a single moment in time. It requires a lot of growth, work, and acceptance to get to that point. You have to accept yourself for who you are before you can expect someone else to, and that acceptance often requires a journey that takes some time. Love attracts love; once you love yourself for who you are, others will too.”</p>
<p>Authors: Alex Naranjo and Marlene Vargas “Your Intuition Led You Here”</p>
<p>Self-love is the biggest ingredient in the recipe for happiness. Love yourself. 💕</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68770152022-01-22T15:04:16-05:002022-01-22T15:04:16-05:00Your happiness is already inside of you<p>Sometimes we go in a million different directions to find that the one thing we have been looking for has been inside of us the whole time. It’s your life. Do as much or as little as you want as long as it makes you happy. Your happiness is all that matters, and it’s already inside of you. </p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68725872022-01-18T09:37:00-05:002022-01-18T09:37:00-05:00Be in the now <p>A friend of mine recommended I read a book called “The Power of Now.” Here is the book description:</p>
<p>“To make the journey into The Power of Now you need to leave your analytical mind and its false created self, the ego, behind. Access to the Now is everywhere - in the body, the silence, and the space all around you. These are the keys to enter a state of inner peace. They can be used to bring you into the Now, the present moment, where problems do not exist. It is here you find your joy and are able to embrace your true self. It is here you discover that you are already complete and perfect. </p>
<p>Although the journey is challenging, Eckhart Tolle offers simple language in a question and answer format. The words themselves are the signposts to guide you on your journey. There are new discoveries to be made along the way: you are not your mind, you can find your way out of psychological pain, authentic human power is found by surrendering to the Now. When you become fully present and accepting of what is, you open yourself to the transforming experience of The Power of Now.”</p>
<p>Honestly, this couldn’t be more true, and what I needed to hear. A lot of times I get so caught up in “what happened” or “what’s next” that I forget to be in the moment. I miss what is happening now. I’m sure a lot of us do this. It’s something I’ve been working on, but now I want to get better. I want to take the pressure off and just enjoy my life now. </p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68697642022-01-15T00:44:11-05:002022-01-15T00:44:11-05:00Follow your heart <p>Follow your heart. ❤️ There is no right or wrong when you are being your true self. Be honest with yourself. Don’t be ashamed, don’t be embarrassed, and don’t be scared. You are not alone. You are loved. Be true to yourself. No one can do you better. You are beautiful and one of a kind. Be yourself. ✨</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68678292022-01-13T11:40:46-05:002022-02-08T20:17:36-05:00Love Unconditionally <p>Love unconditionally. ❤️ The more you accept yourself, the more you will be able to accept others. Everyone wants unconditional love, but few are willing to give it. People will disappoint you, but you have two choices. Stay and make it work, or walk away and move on. Express how you feel. Don’t try to force someone to be what you want. That never works. Love people for who they are, and embrace the ones who show you that same love in return. True love goes both ways. You won’t have to force it. Love yourself unconditionally. Love others unconditionally. Love each other unconditionally. ✨</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68591552022-01-04T16:38:41-05:002022-01-04T17:12:18-05:00When you love yourself, you glow different<p>When you love yourself, you glow different. ✨ Confronting your past can be a painful process. It involves forgiving others who hurt you and mostly forgiving yourself. Letting go of your past is hard, but it is a lot easier than letting it control your future. Things may get a little messy sometimes, and that’s ok. It’s a journey, not a race. The more you are in the moment, the better. Everything in your past led you here and where you are going. Don’t worry about your past anymore. Stay focused on the present, and everything will be okay. Practice that moment to moment. Life is full of moments. Embrace each one. Be in the moment. Be yourself. 💕</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68582962022-01-03T17:14:36-05:002022-01-04T17:00:01-05:00Changing<p>I am releasing my song "Changing" soon. I actually wrote and released this song years ago. The original version was me playing my piano and recording my vocals into GarageBand. A lot has changed since then lol, so I decided I wanted to release it again. This time with more professional vocals, added production, and a music video. The timing really worked out because I can't think of a better time to release this song than now. I have been on a very transformational journey lately, and this song speaks to that. I've been learning so much about myself, people, and the world around us. None of us really knows what tomorrow brings, but we wake up everyday and try our best. Some days are good, and other days not so good, but ultimately we are still here, and we are changing everyday. We are growing everyday even if we don't know it sometimes. If you are reading this, give yourself some credit. You may not be where you want to be or who you think you should be, but sometimes that's a good thing. Maybe change is good. Sometimes we get so caught up in what we think we "should" be that we ignore who we "are." There is nothing wrong with who you are. Embrace that person. Love that person. Be that person. That person is amazing, and nothing will ever change that. So if you want change, then change more into the person you really are. Don't be who you think you should be. Be who you are. The real you is who you were always meant to be. ❤️<br> </p>
<p>“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.” </p>
<p>- Leo Tolstoy</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68512522021-12-25T01:01:58-05:002021-12-25T01:01:58-05:00Be proud of yourself <p>When you realize that you are already enough, you won’t keep trying to prove that you are. There’s beauty in imperfection. Next time you look in the mirror, be proud of the person looking back at you. Be proud of how far you’ve come. You are doing great. Treat yourself like someone you love. Trust yourself, and know that you will keep learning and growing. No matter what life brings, don’t forget how amazing you are. You are enough. You always were and always will be. 💕</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68463592021-12-19T22:57:37-05:002021-12-19T22:57:37-05:00Healing = Freedom<p>To experience healing is to experience true freedom. 🕊 Sometimes you don’t realize how much you’ve been holding onto until you let it go. When you heal, you let go of the version of yourself you created to survive, and you become the most authentic version of yourself. You become the real you. Set yourself free. 💕 Pain builds walls, but healing builds doors. I’m letting down the walls and walking through the doors. Whatever you need to heal from, do it. It’s worth it. 😊</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68094692021-11-14T18:14:39-05:002021-12-06T11:02:36-05:00Break the cycle <p>Break the cycle of pain, break the cycle of confusion, break the cycle of self-doubt, break the cycle of toxic thoughts, break the cycle of fear, break the cycle of shame, break the cycle of hate...the list goes on. Break the cycle. Cleanse all of the toxic energy out of your life. You deserve peace. ☀️</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68059672021-11-11T15:01:00-05:002021-11-11T15:01:00-05:00You are enough <p>Other people’s actions don’t define you. Happiness is an inside job. Don’t assign anyone else that much power over your life. It doesn't matter what's been written in your story so far. It's how you fill up the rest of the pages that counts. Self-healing. Self-growth. Self-love. Don’t let anything or anyone put a verdict on your soul. You are enough. 💕</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/68025672021-11-09T00:21:33-05:002022-05-15T06:37:03-04:00You deserve to live the life of your dreams<p>Been following my passions over my plans lately. Been finding the balance between paying the bills and following my dreams. This time last year I shot my first music video in LA. Lately I have started working on my music and music videos again. It’s a really great feeling. As artists we are often stuck between responsibility and our passions. Our passions don’t always pay the bills so the whole journey is a process. Sometimes we get so caught up with work and responsibilities that we forget to pursue the things that make us happy, and other times we are so caught up in our passions that we forget our responsibilities and money gets tight. Then we find ourselves broke sometimes lol. I’ve done both, but I’m finding that balance now. Most of the time we don’t lack the resources, the talent, or the ability to pursue the life we want. Mostly we only lack faith in ourselves. I will never give up on my dreams, and until my passions pay the bills I will do everything I need to do in the meantime to have balance. I’ve been blessed to be surrounded by so many people who are also on this journey. Living in NYC and LA have been some of the best moments in my life. I’ve been passionate about music and dance for a long time, and being surrounded by the arts and other artists always makes me happy. I’m in love with this journey so far, and I can’t wait to share more with you guys. Stay tuned. When you find something you are passionate about, stick with it because it will make every moment worth living. And if you don’t know what you are passionate about, find out what your passion is. Start doing more with your life. Write down everything you’ve ever wanted to do, and start doing them one by one. Keep taking it one day at a time. One day at a time your dreams will come true. You deserve to live the life of your dreams. 💕</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67907542021-10-29T13:18:24-04:002021-10-29T13:18:24-04:00You are worthy<p>So many times we focus on the things we do wrong instead of the things we do right. Mistakes don’t make us who we are, and more importantly making mistakes is a necessary part of the journey. When we make mistakes, it presents an opportunity for us to grow and do better. Don’t beat yourself up over the mistake. Keep growing, keep learning, and keep moving forward. You are worthy. Life is full of second chances. ❤️</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67820112021-10-20T16:16:24-04:002021-10-22T00:23:38-04:00Love is a beautiful thing<p>A lot of times when we have been hurt by other people we internalize it. Our subconscious starts to tell us to adjust our thoughts and actions toward other people to protect ourselves. The problem with that is we take out our hurt on people who don’t deserve it. We stop trusting and loving people in order to protect ourselves. One thing I’ve learned recently is you can’t properly love someone if you need them to validate you. Don’t take out your pain on others. Instead allow yourself time to heal first, then allow yourself to love and be loved. I’ve always been the type that was skeptical of love. I shut my heart down a long time ago because I believed that a man would always disappoint me, and I’m so used to most men always wanting something from me without caring what I want. I trained myself to be independent so that I wouldn’t need anyone. But now as I heal from those things that caused me to shut down in the first place, I’m realizing the beauty of loving and being loved. Love is a beautiful thing, and that’s what I want. I want something real.</p>
<p>Broken people...break people. Healed people...heal people. ❤️<br> </p>
<p>I love you.</p>
<p>You deserve to love and to be loved.</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67781462021-10-16T15:11:38-04:002021-10-16T15:11:38-04:00Even the darkest days are temporary <p>Sometimes when we are dealing with issues of our past, it is easy to get consumed by dark feelings. Sometimes we feel depressed, guilt, shame, regret, or more. It is good to let ourselves feel these emotions so that we can process them and learn from them. It is also good to remember that these feelings are temporary when we truly allow ourselves to heal. We don’t have to remain stuck in them. There is a time for sadness and a time for joy. Joy is always the goal. Don’t be so consumed by your pain that you forget to look for your happiness. The whole point of acknowledging the dark is to eventually find the light. Don’t let your past or negativity from people control the rest of your life. Don’t waste your miracle on your pain. You deserve to be happy. </p>
<p>”Weeping may last through the night, <br> but joy comes with the morning.”</p>
<p>Psalm 30:5</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67751882021-10-13T19:27:22-04:002021-10-15T11:22:59-04:00Forgiveness: Letting go of control and shame <p>Lately I have been haunted by some decisions I’ve made in my past. Sometimes we find ourselves in situations we never thought we would be in. We ask ourselves how did I get here? I know in my own experiences I felt like I should have known better. I should have done better, and with that comes the feeling of shame. Ashamed of my decisions and where they led me. Ashamed of the life I’ve been living as a result. Ashamed when I make the same bad decisions repeatedly. Ashamed that I let certain people hurt me or have power over me. Then because of that shame I cope by trying to control everything around me either to distract myself or to avoid feeling the pain. I’ve attempted to control my life and the people in it only to find out that it didn’t fix anything and just made things worse. Now I’m learning how to actually cope with my pain and let go of the shame attached to it. We all make mistakes, and forgiving ourselves and others is one of the hardest things to do. We sometimes feel like we don’t deserve it or other people don’t deserve it. We sometimes feel like we will never get better or other people will never get better. One thing I’ve been learning lately is how to let go of control. It’s not an easy task especially when I’m so used to controlling every situation I possibly can. The truth is, no matter how much you “feel” in control...you’re not. Learning to let go of my plans and my control and letting God’s plan unfold has been my biggest task lately. God has taken away all of my distractions leaving me with the root of the problem. I am currently letting go and allowing myself to heal while trying to be patient with myself, God, and other people. It’s hard not having all of the answers, but I know God has good things in store for me. I just have to trust it. </p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67744112021-10-13T06:47:12-04:002021-10-13T07:25:20-04:00Love people for who they are, not who you want them to be <p>Often times we mistakenly love people because we want something from them. We manipulate situations to get what we want from people rather than loving them with no expectations in return. Most people look to other people to fill a void inside of them, but the truth is the only person that can fill the void is you. Most of the time when we are broken, we will do anything to feel better even if that means using other people. We don’t always recognize that is what we are doing because it takes bravery to really look at ourselves in the mirror. We look to other people to fix us instead. The issue with that is that the people we are looking to fix us also have issues of their own. They are also broken in their own ways. When we are only thinking of ourselves and what we can get from people, we totally miss the opportunity to truly love them. We all need love. None of us can truly love or be loved if we remain broken, and we will always remain broken as long as we look to people to fill the void. It is no one else’s job to fix you. In order to truly love someone for who they are, you have to love yourself for who you are. You have to truly look at yourself and figure out what went wrong. Then start to heal. Demanding more from other people won’t help because other people can’t fix you. You will only be more disappointed, more hurt, and more broken when you do that. Then you will also end up disappointing and hurting other people in the process. Broken people break other people. But if we begin to heal, we can all heal and love each other properly. </p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67723502021-10-11T09:57:24-04:002021-10-11T10:34:45-04:00You deserve better from yourself <p>For the most part we are pretty hard on ourselves. We tend to accept things that we don’t deserve, or we do things to others that they don’t deserve. This journey called life can be really confusing sometimes. We are all looking for our identity, our place in the world, the people we should love or let love us, what we’re passionate about, what our career should be, and what will ultimately make us happy. But the truth is, you existing is enough. You are enough. We spend so much time looking for answers that we don’t need because we want to feel important, we want to feel like we’re overcoming our past, and we want to feel like we’re somebody. But you already are. The things you think you lack you don’t. Most of it is mental. What you are searching for is already inside of you. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is accept ourselves flaws and all. Yes we’ve made mistakes. Yes there are times we could’ve done things better. Yes there are things we still have to learn. Yes there are still people we need to meet. Sometimes we feel lonely, sometimes we feel like we’re failing, sometimes life just feels heavy, like we’re running a race that we will never win. But the biggest thing you have to tell yourself, is that you are already winning. You don’t need outside sources to validate who you are. Who you are already exists. You don’t need people to validate you, and you don’t need a career to validate you...you can validate you. Work is what you do, it’s not who you are. Your actions and what you do don’t ultimately determine who you are. Don’t judge yourself...love yourself. Your mistakes don’t define who you are. People don’t define who you are. Your career doesn’t define who you are. Who you are already exists. And who you are is enough.</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67496642021-09-17T11:55:55-04:002021-09-17T12:52:56-04:00Letting go of the past<p>Lately I've been on a journey of self healing. I've been allowing myself to feel certain things from my past that I typically run away from or ignore. All of us have a past, and a lot of the time the experiences from our past are painful. Everyone has their own way of coping with it. Some people distract themselves, some people ignore it completely, some people look to other people to fix it, some people give into addictions, etc. One thing I've realized recently about myself is that I tend to be a workaholic. I work as a way to distract myself and make myself feel like I am not letting my emotions get the best of me. I work to make myself feel more powerful and more in control of my life. As a result, I tend to find more value in my accomplishments than I do in myself. I am realizing that is not what will bring me happiness. So I've taken on the hard task of actually acknowledging all of the things of my past that I have been running from and facing my emotions head on. I wish I could say that it has been easy, but the truth is it is really really hard. However, even though it is hard, it is worth it. I've learned so much about myself in this short time, and I've learned that I am a lot stronger than I give myself credit for. I'm fighting for myself and my happiness. I'm acknowledging things that hurt me and allowing myself to feel. I'm allowing myself to cry when I need to cry and releasing the pain. Even though it is not easy in the moment, I always feel better afterwards. Taking one more step towards freedom. Taking one more step towards true happiness. I am finding the real me, and letting go of the version of myself that I created to survive. We all wear a mask sometimes to cover up who we really are and how we really feel. It's time to take off the mask and accept and love yourself. It's time to let go of the things that have been weighing you down. It's time to release the pain. You deserve to be happy.</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67457892021-09-14T14:57:40-04:002021-09-14T14:57:40-04:00God's Help (a poem I wrote when I was 16) <p>Sometimes I'm scared and very afraid, </p>
<p>Sometimes I worry and question these days. </p>
<p>I thought I was strong, but I'm actually insecure, </p>
<p>I thought I was wonderful, superior, and sure. </p>
<p>I was decieved, only decieving myself, </p>
<p>Thinking I could do it with no one else. </p>
<p>But why did I think i could do it alone? </p>
<p>Why did I show only what I thought should be shown? </p>
<p>What do they see when they look in my eyes? </p>
<p>Do they see the true me or do they see all the lies? </p>
<p>I can't believe I'm actually saying these words, </p>
<p>When others say them they sound so absurd. </p>
<p>How can I show truth, when they've seen lies for so long? </p>
<p>I feel so weak, not a little bit strong. </p>
<p>I want to be stronger, but it's holding me back, </p>
<p>"It" is the confidence I seemingly lack. </p>
<p>I know it's embedded deep within my soul, </p>
<p>I want it to shine, to shine bright as a whole. </p>
<p>I want it to be easy, but it feels so rough. </p>
<p>I hold it inside because I'm trying to be tough. </p>
<p>Sometimes I feel I've forced myself, </p>
<p>to be happy inside though that's not how I felt. </p>
<p>When will I learn to stop doing it myself? </p>
<p>Maybe that's the problem...I'm doing it myself. </p>
<p>When will I learn to start letting go? </p>
<p>And rely on the One who can rescue my soul? </p>
<p>I know I can be happy, but I HAVE to let go. </p>
<p>I can't do this alone, I need God's help.</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67457882021-09-14T14:56:08-04:002021-10-11T10:40:22-04:00*The Real Me* <p>When I really think about it, and just being honest with myself the only times I can remember truly being what God wanted me to was when I was 14 yrs old - 16yrs old. I consider those years very valuable because that is a time in my life that God truly revealed Himself and His heart to me. I'm not saying I didn't live for or love God outside those years, but during that time I had clear understanding. I had a clear motive and purpose. I had a pure mind. Very few people know that person in me because knowing that person is the closest anyone can get to knowing the real me. That person in me that wants so deeply to see everything...EVERYTHING in God's heart. The person in me who wouldn't dream of leaving God's side even for a second. The person in me who's concern is for everyone...EVERYONE to see God for who He really is. The person in me who truly loves people and wants the world to be ok. The person in me who's passion is for purpose and destiny. The person in me who lives for transformation and change. I know God's heart, but I haven't ALWAYS made it my heart. For a while I kept that person a secret, even now. I kept the God in me a secret out of fear. Why would I do that? I let my circumstances and situations tell me I was something different or that I should be something different. I let the enemy convince me to be afraid of people, pain, and disappointment. I kept that person in a safe place where no one could see because I was afraid I would never meet anyone that shared that same heart, and I was afraid of being alone. Sometimes I didn't want people to see it. Then the more I allowed myself to be hurt by people and situations the more I buried who I really was away only to replace it with a false view of myself that I assumed others would prefer or accept. Eventually I pretended it wasn't there thinking that would make things easier to the point I was trying to separate from God and convince myself that God didn't have my back (which backfired lol). I was doing too much. I was giving myself and the enemy wayyy too much control. I was trying to run away from myself in order to protect myself from getting hurt. I was living by what the enemy told me I should be, instead of living by what God gave me from birth. My life was controlled by lies from the enemy... Lies that said I couldn't trust people, lies that said I don't have real power, lies that said I have to look out for myself because no one including God will have my back, lies that said I am alone, lies that said people are not worth caring about, lies that said my pain would never go away, lies that said I should just give up, etc. And I told myself "It's too late." But that's a lie. The truth is that I don't have to accept lies and the pain, confusion, and distraction that comes with it because I have God's truth. I let Satan win the battle, but I will win the war. Why? because I didn't forget who I am, I only was hiding it. God gave me a vision a long time ago. God told me who I am and my purpose a long time ago. God revealed the secrets of his being to me a long time ago. And now it's about time I share that with the world. It's time to remember who I am. I'm tired of being afraid and feeling trapped. I'm tired of hiding the good in me. I'm tired of holding back. God placed a power in me that I've watered down just so I could fit in the world. I'm tired of fitting in...It's time to stand out...and be the real me.</p>Azanri Lovetag:azanrilove.com,2005:Post/67325122021-08-31T21:39:29-04:002023-12-10T11:52:36-05:00Welcome to my new blog!<p>Hey guys! I've been meaning to do this for a while. For as long as I can remember I have always loved to write whether it be writing in journals, writing poems, or writing songs. I've always been better at writing things rather than saying them. I've gotten better with communicating over the years, but writing is my safe place. I'm starting this blog because I have a lot to say, and I want to spread love to all of you. I've been through a lot in my life. More than most people know. Each experience has taught me something. I've become stronger and wiser with each experience. Through my pain, I am finding my happiness. The purpose of this blog is to love and to inspire. Everyone has a story, and we are all looking for our happiness and our place in the world. We all deserve to find it. While I look for mine, I want to help you look for yours. We are in this together. I'm going to be open and honest. I'm realizing the world needs more of that. We all should never be afraid to be open and honest. We should never be afraid to be ourselves. We should never be afraid to chase our dreams and live a life that makes us happy. I have found that in my own life, having balance in these four areas makes me the happiest. Love God. Love People. Love Life. Love Yourself. When you are able to do all of those things, it really makes a difference. So here it goes. Let's start this journey together. ❤️</p>Azanri Love